Absolutely nothing is wrong. If you are mother that has given your child wings to grow beyond your house, you know what my title means. When children are in our house, we can see them, know where they are, see their expressions, and love them at a close range.
I didn't think it would be hard for me when Shane left our home. He is so independent, works so many hours, and is home so seldom that I thought I have been preparing myself. As I sit here typing in tears, I know that I haven't prepared myself at all. They are tears that are a mixture of joy, pride, and aching - so maybe I'm getting there!
Well, what did set me off in these tears? Last night Shane came home after working a 12-hour shift. He made some homemade popcorn (not that microwave stuff), and plopped down on the couch next to me. He told me what a good day he had, and then headed off to bed. This morning I woke up to the popcorn popper in the sink, grease on the stove and floor, and bowls on the cupboard and in the sink. You'd think I'd be angry - LOL! Instead I washed those dishes and the floor with a tears. That was the last Saturday he'll live in our home. Oh, I know there's some people that would say he may be home. But I am wise enough to know that when you set some butterflies free, they find the wings of eagles and soar.
How grateful I am to know that I am not releasing this child into the world! Long ago, I learned that I have been gifted with Shane. He truly belongs to the Father. It was my job to raise him in faith and to pray for him without ceasing. And so I will continue to do knowing that he rest in the hands of the Almighty. Those are good solid hands, and what better comfort is there than that?
Oh, I really am not a blubbering fool of a mother! I had difficulty when Shane graduated, too. I don't hardly remember those months before his graduation. I still know that there are other times I will be crying and releasing him even more - marriage, children. I want him to live the fullest in what God intends him to be, and never limit him.
And so I will continue to be, without ceasing, a prayer-filled mother.